Accidentally Discovering Utopia?

I often find that I come to my greatest personal breakthroughs entirely by accident - usually while I am writing to someone. The words spill out and I find that THERE is my answer. As always, the answers to all of our questions are inside of us, but finding them may be somewhat tricky. While I was writing an email to my therapist (yes, I have a therapist, and this is her preferred way of getting me to "open up" because in writing I have much more emotion than in speaking) I finished with a paragraph that was my breakthrough. I am not going to quote it directly, I am taking out and adding a bit more in, but I do want to put the message of it into the universe, and on my blog. Here it is: In my perfect world, maybe I would have a faux-hawk. I would work out at the gym every day, regardless of whether or not I lose my curves (guys ALWAYS protest strongly whenever I say I'm going to go to the gym), I would work out because I LOVE how it makes me FEEL. I wouldn't eat meat because my body doesn't like trying to digest it, nor would have have meat in my house because I'm not bothering to eat it. I would live alone and have friends over several times a week, and would go out to spend time with them, we'd laugh and have fun, but at the end of the day I would be alone in my sanctuary of peace and comfort and positive energy. I wouldn't date, I don't even enjoy it, and sex doesn't ever provide for me what I can provide myself so I really have not found that situation where it proves to me that dating is worth it. I don't even WANT children someday, and I cannot picture myself partnered to someone forever. I would have a car, and could go wherever I wanted, whenever I wanted, and could just drive around at night. I would do my art, and tattooing, and my house would look the way I want, without anyone else's input. I would learn what I want, when I want it, and I would teach, too. I would do energy work and healing, my home would be a safe, sanctuary where friends and acquaintances felt safe and happy and at peace. My home would always be clean and I would have a place for everything and everything in its place - if it doesn't have a place, I would get rid of it, and not care about anyone else's opinion. Someday I will build my own home, and I will have a library in it with a section just for antique bibles - and I won't care about people's judgments just because the bible is a religious text - antique bibles are a passion of mine, and I don't know why, but I want to honor that side of myself. In fact, I want to honor all of my passions, no matter how nonsensical or strange or out of place they may be. I think what REALLY changed things for me this week was a quote in an article I read at school that was talking about Martin Luther King Jr.'s "I Have A Dream" speech and why it was so impactful. Two of the things I jotted down from that article were: "Completely align your actions with firm commitment," and "self-belief from a beyond-personal source." According to the article, these were two traits King possessed. And they are two traits I have been grasping at for myself, yet still missing, and I finally could see, by those words, that if I were to possess those two traits unwaveringly, I would have the life I want, and could live in authenticity. And now that is my goal. That is MY dream. And I WILL have it. With lots of well-wishes, Jojo